The Glass Is Half Full. (:

Guess what, guys? I want to be little and cheerful and young and innocent again. I want to think boys are gross and girls will never ever do anything mean to me. I want to believe in fairytales again, I want to be that princess that gets rescued by a prince and lives happily ever after. I want my fun, care-free parents back. I want my brothers to talk again, and to be the best friends that they were. I want everyone around me to be happy. I want people not to regret their actions; because if they regret them why'd they even do them in the first place? I want to not be hated, I want to not hate. I want everyone I have hurt to forgive me. I want everyone to be best friends. I want the world to breathe easy again, I want it to flourish and grow and be beautiful and wonderful and amazing. I want the world to accept everyone in it, because they were put there for a reason. I want the world to love again; deeply routed strands of love running through the jungles and the rivers and the skyscrapers and the little villages and back around again and again. These strands of love should tie everyone together, should hold us up when someone falls. They're not there though. Why not? Because not eveyone loves, not everyone looks for the best in people. I want them to, though.

My goals for the end of this year are to:
-Apologize to the people I have hurt. I'm literally going to speak to the people that I think I've hurt the most. If I hurt you, and I don't apologize, let me know. I'm serious. I will apologize.
-Notice the best of the best things in people everyday. And then tell them this. I'm going to complement people that I see as best I can. They should know they're beautiful, I shouldn't very well keep this information to myself.
-Find the beauty in everything. Notice the small things. I used to be good at this. I started getting distracted. Now, I don't even look at clouds anymore. I need to cherish the smallest, most happy moments of my life.
-Be more optimistic. And not think about bad things for days, and just let them go.

Those are the two main ones. I want to do them. So if you see me not doing this, tell me. (: I know I can't be young again. But I'm going to try to make the best of growing up. I want to be happy, I want to see beauty, I want to love everyone, I want to spread joy; I want to be me, with a motiviation to live out everything, a newfound happiness. Care to join me? Let's make the best of our last days of freshman year, let's clear our slates, let's forgive those who have hurt us, let's seek forgiveness from those we've hurt, let's notice that pretty flower alone in a field of grass, let's notice her new hair pin, let's laugh for hours on end until we cry, let's open ourselves to everyone. Let's learn from and teach people around us how to love and enjoy life's little beauties. Sounds good, Yeah? :D

So, other than that. I think that Scandalous Scholastics by Gym Class Heroes is such a good song!! AND ALOHA IS ON FRIDAY!! O-MFREAKING-G that's in four days! I need something to wear! Everyone better go. I want to take pictures! Make sure you guys take a picture with me! I want to capture every memory. I've been having a shortage of pictures lately. haha. So yeeah. It's soon! And I'm going to have so much extra time now that I don't have ID practices. ): I wanna make one of those chains that you pull of one each day and it's a countdown. I'll make it a countdown to the last day of school.

That's so bittersweet. I'm so looking forward to summer and volleyball and soccer but I'm not looking forward to Health or Adrian's graduation or him going away or Daniel going back to college and me being home alone all of next year. I don't want to not see everyone everyday. Even passing by you, I say hi usually. I'm going to miss that during the summer. AGH. But whatever. Summer should still be fun. I'm going to try SO hard to sleep as much as I can and to read as much as I can! I have so many books to catch up on!!

So. This is such a randomass post. Sorry! But. I just don't wanna do my Spanish script. x) Haha. So if you read through this, good luck stringing everything together. (: I just wanna say I love you guys who do read this, even though we don't talk much at school. At least I know some people know these random tidbits of my life. Haha. Expect a happier me, tomorrow. Hopefully. (: