Over it

I need to fucking get over it. How many sleepless nights, ongoing conversations, and wishes did I waste on you. And how worth it did you turn out?

fucking. worthless. waste of time.

so there. I am over it. I think I was over it the moment i realized that there were better things for me. When you told me that we shouldn't hang out and you don't want anything and sorry if you ruined our friendship, I honestly did not even care. Even Megan was like "Marissa, are you SURE you are okay?" because she knows I hide like, everything, but I straight up told her it didn't bother me at all, and it was the truth.

I reread a lot of my posts/drafted posts today, and so many were about you, you have no idea. I don't know how to explain it, but I guess I kinda feel... empty? towards you. Like, I feel absolutely no emotions about you. I guess it's all due to the fact we haven't seen each other for such a long time. i know when I do see you, obviously I'll be happy, but I wouldn't have wanted anything. I know we don't go like that, and I thought you knew too.

anyways. I am over it, and anything that could have happened. who knows, maybe we'll have a chance in the future, but I doubt it. :/ I guess, if anything, thanks for being a learning experience?
AHHAHA that is what people say when they have no other good things to say about something.

but, in case anybody was wondering, I am truly over it. (: And it's a good thing.

i was looking onn ratemyteachers.com todaay because i was very bored and looking at the comments and stuff under my momma. and like. i was offended by what people said about her LOL. because I'm used to people saying it to my face, but i've never thought about what they would say on the interent, making it public. like this one person from like a few years ago said "i agree with the other guy. CHS didn't want her no more for a reason all those kids that i know are laughin at us that we're stuck with her now." and i was like "are you fucking kidding me?" because that is the most stupid thing I have ever heard. and likee I get that she's boring and can be very picky about how you do everything, but she is a reallyyy good teacher and people that posted negative comments were just like "you need to work for an A" well no shit you need to work for an A that's the only way that it means something -__- AND YEAH. random rant. but this annoyed me very much. because I feel like a lot of times, people say bad stuff about the people that are close to me to my face and expect me not to care but I do care, i'm just too weird about it to stand up for that person. but yeaah. this frustrated me LOL. and yeaaah. no one used blogspot anymore huh?! i cant get used to tumblr thoughh. ):