Thank You?

Todaay was good. I guess. In the morning, Melissa and I and my parents went to Whitney for this soccer tournament thingie. We went mainly to support them and to see what was going on. And Melissa and I just were in the parking lot talking to Andy &Michael while they took people's parking money. Haha. It was fun. Then afterwards, my parents were like "meet us at the car we're leaving" and we got in and drove out when my mom told us they had food so we were like "oh we want some!" so we drove back in and me &Melissa like ran into the field. And we were looking for the food and like we saw Jesus for like two seconds. But the food we wanted wasn't there and we were in a rush so we just ran back out. And then we went to TC to watch Four Christmases. When we got there we got Starbucks, and I tried the green tea frappuchino and it was reallyy gross. ahaha. So the movie was really funny! Then we took Melissa home and when we got home we started getting ready for dinner.

When we got there, some of my aunts and uncles were there. We were about to start eating but then my aunt realized the turkey was undercooked. So like all the kids had served there food and we had to wait for it to be recooked. -_- for like twenty minutes. so we decided to say grace and when we started eating everyone had to warm up their food. ahaha. But yeeah. I guess it was good. There were moments when I was like "what the hell. This is thanksgiving. Could you just stop?" because of my mom/brother but whatever. I should be used to it, right? After we ate pie, me, Adrian, and my cousin like fell asleep on the sofas, because we were soo tired. And the drive home took like 40 minutes. and now, I'm tired. But i just wanted to write this. (: And i have practice tomorrow from 8-10 so I might as well sleep noww. Happy Thanksgiving, everyone. (:

oh. guys! run faster!

AHAHA okay so today. I totally did something retarded during soccer. like we were jogging around the field and randomly stopping to do crunches. and the second lap was supposed to be sprinting. soo like i was pretty freaking tired so i wasn't sprinting full out. but i was near the end and we were passing the guys team who was in a circle. and all of a sudden i sprinted sooo fast till the end! ahaha. likee the world was blurring! and emily hwang said it's just my natural instinct to impress boys and all girls have it. ahaha.

andd. formal. AHAH okay so the main reason i don't wanna get asked I realized is cuz like. Sure, I'd most likely say yes to some guys. BUT what if like after I find out someone i'd RATHER go with is gonna ask me? or i'd just rather go with someone else, but they can't go? Or. If I'm totaallly fine with going with someone who asks me, but at the same time i'd rather not because people will think of us as a 'thing' and i don't wanna be thought of like that. especially if there's other people i'd rather... i dunno. it's hard to explain! whatevs. i'll just see IF i even get asked. which i doubt i will. ahah.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISABEL! (: I hope you're enjoying your 15th birthday! (:

I have to do homework now. ): I don't even feel like I have any. But i knoww i have something to do. ): OH! i got a 96 on my math test! maybe that'll make up for the sucky bio grade i'll get tomorrow! ahah.

Okaay so I finally got pushed to do this. (: I haven't posted in a month. and I think it's because I tried that whole non-deep thingie. But I dunno. it didn't work out. So whatever. I will post weird stuff that makes you be like "who the heck is this girl?!" but i'll also do happy stuff. (: And two people reminded me I haven't posted in a while. So here I go, a totally randooom post. (:

So. A lot has gone on in one month! I'm pretty over thinking that one guy is really cute. Like yeah, I think he's cute but theen it's not like something I always think about. AHAH. But. i HATE guys. Like. They confuse me so much. But I'm sure you don't care. x) Let's just saay. Formal's coming up. And I thought I wanted to get asked but I'm not sure anymoree. But that's a confusing thing for me to explain. But still. I guess it'd be REALLY cool to get asked. ahaha.

Now, I have free 7ths because I have soccer practices at 3:15 so i'm free till theen. So basically I just either go with the athletics people or I'm in front of bender's watching people play cards. ahaha. And yeah. Soccer. Is. Freaking. Intense. It's not even super tiring, it's just weird. Like it gets us tired in the moment, but I honestly can't see much improvement. And I haven't been able to practice much because of my shin splints on my left leg. ): BUT i'm getting better I hope. First game is on December 2, against Gahr, at home. Don't watch. x) LOL. Hmm. But soccer is fun. I've started talking to a buncha people now.

So. Life's been whatever. Sometimes, I honestly feel like just screaming my heart out. But sometimes, I'm so happy. THe littles things make me happy. But becuase of that the littlest things make me sad too. So. I have like an emotional aspect of me that has to remain very balanced, because I know once I have that happy fun crazy time something will happen that will make it seem worthless, you know? And like, I really forget everything outside during soccer. Like even if it's something reallyy good that happened or something bad. Like I just forget it, and focus on soccer. And it's fun for me. It really helps take my mind off things. (:

Buut. gaaah. I'm confused about life; about guys and friends and family and school. It's all so tough. Like I feel so physically and mentally tired all the time trying to please people and do well in school and not say anything to offend people and from going out of your way to do things for someone. It's just, hard. But. It's the weekend. I hope I get to rest. (:

So. Yeeah. I hope I'll update more. I've just been uber busyy. So yeah. (: