Monday, April 30, 2012

bittersweet

bittersweet as fuck. i'm in one of my off periods again. super detached and just completely annoyed and frustrated by every little thing. having to make a decision in the midst of this is hell. but i made it.

and i'm happy.

and scared.
and sad.
and overwhelmed.

but I'm excited.

so much to look forward to, so many new places to see, new people to meet, new things to learn, new concepts to be challenged by. but so many things to say good bye to; old friends on different sides of the country, a dog that i've had since 4th grade, new friends i made just this year, brothers that have been my everything since i can remember. that's the scariest, i think. "i'll miss you around here" he broke my heart. dwelling on these sad things is making being happy more difficult, but i definitely am happy to have taken this risk and to get the chance to get to experience new, amazing things.

3 comments:

archie said...
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archie said...

we discussed choosing colleges at my sunday school this week. and it was super relevant and like eye opening. my teacher, shes like in her mid 20's so she's been through the whole decision process and whatnot. and her biggest advice to us was "leave the state and take that risk". because if we dont take it now, then we're just gonna get more used to that comfort zone, and we'd never want to leave. and that made me think about why i didnt apply to any east coast schools. but i'm really excited that you choose amherst. you're gonna have so much fun playing in the east coast, and taking whatever courses you wanna take! yay for liberal schools. you're amazing, marissa <3

Marissa said...

<3 thanks archieee :)