if only

and if you only knew how much i miss you, and how much i think about you every single fucking day that passes by. if only you knew how much i would love to spend time with you, how much you would mean to me. if only you knew how good we could be, if only you knew that even when i talk to other people, you're always in the back of my mind. If only you knew that even though you were a complete jerk, i can't make myself hate you or what you did, i just want to see you more to resolve it. if only you knew that if it had been any other guy, he would have been out of sight and out of mind the second he left. if only you fucking knew. how much i could really truly believe in us and how wonderful we would be.