today. I got hit in the face really hard by someone's serve during varsity warmups. and then i got like reaction tears, you know the ones that you can't help just because something hurt so much and you cant really control it? so i was like "omfg" and i went to kaya so that it would stop so i could continue helping out; but the weird thing is, my tears wouldn't stop. and i was legitly crying not even just tearing. whatthefuck. i had to go to the bathroom to wash my face, but luckily i could blame it on the ball.

i feel so on edge these days. i guess part of it has to do with sleeping like 4 hours every day and not eating healthy and blah blah blah. but this really sucks. i'm getting so annoyed at people for the smallest things, and people are always telling me I either look tired, sick, or really mad. and in volleyball i'm especially sensitive. ugh. this sucks. ):